HANGING IN THERE! I’m starting block 7 of 8! 12 more weeks until graduation!
So my last block was general pediatrics. I got my butt handed to me and I am so burned out. So many new disease states and different levels of management for these little kiddos. I had babies from 10 days old to older patients of 21 years old that didn’t move to the adult ward. I learned a lot throughout this rotation on diseases more specific for pediatrics. I’ve been going in to work 30 mins early and leaving late just to get through all my patients in the morning for rounds with the team. The commute is probably what drives me nuts. I leave my house at 6:20AM to catch a 6:37 bus, to get to work at 7:15, and supposed to start at 8AM, but I start working at 7:30. And it’s an hour to get home as well. So while at work, I’m chugging coffee like there’s no tomorrow. I rarely have time for lunch and skip it on most days. I come home exhausted and have to study and work on projects and presentations. I’ve been sleeping 4-6 hours per night for weeks or a month now. Then rinse and repeat for 6 weeks.
So for this next one, I’m doing the exact same thing but I’m at both the pediatrics ICU rotation and the neonatal ICU rotation. My classmate was just in it and she looked absolutely miserable. I anticipate feeling the same way but I asked her for some tips so I am 10% ahead of the curve lol.
All in all, I’m going through these rotations and this is my 4th inpatient rotation in a row now. I feel extremely miserable and hating my life. Part of it is the commute. At least 2 hours of my day is wasted getting from one place to the next when I could sleep more or get more stuff done. I’ve also just stopped going to the gym and taking these last few months off. I’m fat as duck and hating myself for it. I’ve been having these long tension type headaches that won’t go away, I’ve been feeling like an insomniac, I’m developing more problems in my life without exercise. I feel more lethargic, my bowels haven’t been regular, my eyes are going blurry, I have canker sores all over, and my teeth are staining from coffee.
Legit working my butt off for months of overtime without a break. And here I am about to go into a difficult ICU rotation… I’m so burned out. But 6 more weeks and a big bye bye to the inpatient setting. CIAO! One of my professors said, “you don’t have to be crazy to work in a hospital, but it certainly helps.” And if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em. Let’s get crazy and finish strong! Then I’ll go back to the gym and get the therapy I so need.
This Valentine’s was super fun! WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
My gift for her was a pillow pet pig (her fav) and a bouquet of twix. Just a day prior, I realized a vase would’ve looked better than a mug. It was a pain putting that together though lol. I also handmade a card for her too. She got me a giant yard of twix HAHA.
So this girl pretty much captured my heart but there’s still a lot of uncertainties between us. I’m crazy about her and she’s crazy about me. We’ve been on 8 dates so far and I get super excited every time I get to see her. We made it unofficially official on Valentine’s Day!!! She’s never been in a relationship and she’s afraid of getting hurt. She also wants her parents to be involved in approving of who she dates. That’s understandable and I can respect that. Furthermore, she’s never had a first kiss and we still haven’t kissed HAHA. She is a good Christian and her heart is in the right place.
I think there are cons to every side. There are some things that we don’t particularly match and agree with. However, she is someone that I love talking with and in the end, it all comes down to how well you connect with each other. We’ve only known each other for 1.5 months and we both agreed that although we both like each other, we still need time to get to know each other better before laying down a huge emotional investment.
Staying hopeful. In the meantime, I got TONS of work to do. General pediatrics rotation and afterwards is Pediatrics ICU. I also need to try and keep up with the gym and start working on that summer bod! Holy crap, I’m still in hibernation mode and I’m the fattest I’ve ever been. Dang it rotations, all I do is sit here and study and eat!
Just finished Block 5! That was one of my easier blocks – Care Transitions. After having Internal Medicine, everything else seemed much easier. My next block is General Pediatrics. I am so nervous for that but super excited! It’ll be similar to Internal Medicine, so I’ll most likely have to take time off gym again, not that I have been going much anyways.
More dates with this girl lately! Snowboarding last month was awesome! It was my first time and I was getting really good at it and didn’t slow them down that much. There was another newcomer in the group too and he was so dead by the end. Thank goodness I lift. My legs were fine by the end =D
We’ll call her T. She’s got a lot of qualities that I’m looking for. She’s super smart and talented, doesn’t drink, doesn’t go out to the clubs, family oriented, generous and sweet. I found out she’s never had a boyfriend and this does raise some warning flags or at least tread cautiously because first love typically don’t last but that is not always true. What I would like to know is if I can work well with this person. Will she make compromises? Will she be understanding? If she’s got good qualities, I could see it working out.
We’ve only recently met more than a month ago and we’ve gone on 5 dates so far. I had asked a few people if they think I should make it official. We haven’t kissed. Actually, she’s never had a first kiss and when I attempted it on the 2nd date, I could tell she wasn’t ready and I didn’t want to push her. I have given her kisses on the cheek and she is receptive of that 🙂
Valentine’s Day is next week. I have an idea but details aren’t there yet. It’ll be one she won’t forget 😀 HAHA
We’re halfway through January but it’s never too late to make new goals!
Big changes are happening this year. I’m finally going to graduate and I will have a real full time job with the career I have in mind, a legal drug dealer LMAO.
One of my biggest goal is to find a daily routine that works for me. Call me boring or old fashioned, but a routine works for me. I like planning my day and knowing what I have to do that day. If there’s a day off, I need to know when those are and what I can do with them. This way, I can plan out my workouts because life has not been consistent lately and I haven’t found much time to go to the gym.
With that said, some of these may be the same as another year.
- Less gaming. There were definitely times last year where I felt like I was addicted to playing League. I would spend 15 hours a day grinding away for days or even weeks at a time. So the plan this year is to play in moderation!
- Focus on my career. I will be just starting my job and I want to make sure I have a solid foundation. I’m not going to know everything but I hope to be a great pharmacist and hope to know as much as I can in order to be the best that I can.
- Read. My gosh. There were so many chances I had this year to read. If I took out all the times I spent playing video games, I would’ve read so many books.
- Be a planner. Now that I’m not in school anymore and just doing rotations, I don’t feel the need to plan things out. I have projects and presentations creeping but they’re manageable. I definitely want to get in the routine of planning my days out ahead of time and make sure I know what needs to be done for the day. Otherwise, I feel like it’s wasted. For instance, I wanted this done weeks ago. But I’ve been REWATCHING movies and playing games 😀
- Socialize. No longer on campus and I no longer see friends on a daily basis. If there are opportunities to go out, I need to take advantage of those. Basically I need to be out there more often. But as an introvert, talking to people takes energy. XD
- Workout. I’ve been on and off for 5 years but that is just part of life. Understand that there are setbacks and continue to find the drive and motivation to be at the top of my game.
Short list but that’s all I can think of.
Last year, one of the things on the list was to write good things that happened throughout the year. It went well for the first 6 months then I went on my trip and basically everything in life was real good and I stopped doing it because there were too many things to write down. It helped me appreciate the good things in life and to take note of them.
Lastly, I met this girl……. She’s an interesting one. 🙂 We’re going on our 3rd date tmw to go snowboarding. It’ll be my first time but she’s a veteran haha. More updates on another post when I get to know her better 🙂
Felt like so much happened, yet nothing happened at all. I feel like I’ve changed and I’m not sure if it’s for better or for worse.
- Met a girl who I put a lot of effort into but it just wasn’t meant to be. However, many adventures were had and I am grateful I was able to feel what it’s like to have a crush on someone again even if those feelings weren’t reciprocated.
- Developed a closer friendship with my ex-roommate during the school year who so kindly gave me a place to stay when I went there.
- Asia trip with my family that spanned over 4 weeks including Taiwan, China, Singapore, Malaysia, and Japan.
- Hawaii trip for 9 days in Oahu.
- Landed a retail pharmacist job for when I graduate.
Some down sides is that I really fell off the horse the last half of this year. P3 year was pretty tough as well and I had to really get my -ish together.
As for summer, I worked out routinely for the first 12 weeks. Then internal medicine came and I have stopped working out ever since even after my rotation ended. I can’t seem to get back into the groove, partially because the commute is 40+ mins and I have to take the bus. I’m ashamed of how badly I’m doing with my fitness life. Those that saw me recently noticed how significant my weight loss was and how much size I have lost. (FYI- that’s a very bad thing for me.) I’m also balding and I should probably see a doctor for all these things. Maybe I’m malnourished after living off 1 meal a day for 6 weeks. Maybe there’s an underlying disorder. Or it’s stress or genetics. It appears my mom’s brothers are balding but I wonder at what age it happened. Because I’m 25 and it has put a lot of stress on me. AH. So much for my love life as well.
Love life is negative 50. Social life is zero. Had a few health problems in the year as well. At this point, I haven’t even thought about being in a relationship. I don’t take the time to meet people and with my appearance and status, I’m never going to make a good first impression. Short, small, asian guy, and balding at 25 years old. NOTHANKS. -Sigh- I’m just going to keep doing my own thing and let this one work itself out, otherwise I get desperate and needy and that’s just more stuff I don’t need to add to the list.
Basically the highlight of this year are my two trips and my job offer. Otherwise, I’m mostly busy with rotations and lifting just didn’t become a priority. I did establish that in 2015 I would focus on school and my career more and look what it got me! A JOB! 😀 I’ll make a New Year’s Resolutions post later when I figure out what I hope to accomplish in 2016. Happy New Year’s!
WHY WERE YOU IN HAWAII? – It was Sept and I was like, why not? My friend is there and he said it was fine with him to live at his place so I booked the ticket. I was there for 9 days which flew by SUPER fast.
I was not prepared for this trip and I’m super glad my friend knows some good places to take me to. For nearly the entire trip, I was with my friend and wasn’t able to meet up with any of my other friends except two days before my departure where I got to see 6 of my friends and we had dinner.
On this trip, I mostly got to explore the island. I got to hike (from right to left):
We went to Kailua beach twice just because it was awesome. We went to Lanikai beach (bottom 2) on the last day and it was awesome as well. That’s where I got to build my sand snowman. Waikiki beach is the tourist-y beach and it was okay (tall buildings in the back).
And I’m sure you all wanna know, WHAT DID YOU EAT? From right to left:
Shoyu Chicken from Rainbow Drive-In
Loco Moco at Ala Moana Shopping Center
Spicy Garlic and Butter Garlic Shrimp from Shrimp Trucks
Pork Laulau, pipikaula, lomi salmon, and poi from Young’s Fish Market
Spicy Hot Pot from Sweet Home
Acai Bowl from Health Bar
Mochi Ice Cream from Bubbies
Shaved Ice from Waiola
I also had spicy ahi poke, sushi, spam musubi, ramen, malasadas, zippy’s chili, saimin, macadamia nut sauce pancakes and Korean BBQ. I know I am missing a lot more but I hope to try even more when I go back next time. I didn’t get to do any of the water stuff except chill on the beach. Hoping to try snorkeling, kayaking, boogie boarding and all that fun stuff next time. My friend doesn’t do those either so it would be nice if we had somebody that knew what they were doing.
I definitely miss the sun. It was 80+ degrees and when I felt that sun for the first time, it was pure bliss. Oregon doesn’t have much of it and it constantly rains.
BUT WHERE ARE THE PICTURES OF THE BEACH GIRLS? – uhhhh… T___T
Anyways, good times were had. It is awesome to have friends in different places that can help you out and show you places. BIG MAHALO!
Finally a break! I feel so free!
Six weeks of hardships is done. I’m sure I will have many more ahead but I have a break for now. I finished my last day yesterday and I miss my general medicine team. I was actually there the longest. The med students came in on my 2nd week and the doctor was there for 2 weeks at a time. But I miss them a lot. We cracked some hard cases and we helped tons of people get their life together. It was a very rewarding rotation. I’ve had to sacrifice so much but for the greater good of my knowledge, it was worth it.
Today was interview day. The class got back together and we had interviews with different retail companies. Everyone could tell I look skinnier and my arms don’t fill my suit like in the past. I guess that’s what 6 weeks of torture will do to you lol. In some sick, twisted way, it was a good rotation. Would I do it again? No. But I am glad I did it.
Anyways, interviews went surprisingly better than I expected. I thought I was going to crash, burn, and die and quit my career before it even took off. It may happen, but hope for me is still there.
This winter break I will be going to Oahu in Hawaii! I’m leaving in a few days and will be back a week before Christmas! Hope to update when I get back. First time, SOOOO EXCITED! 😀